Important things happens every day...

     For some time now, i was maybe complaining to often about my dull life, that i do not feel like i am doing something important, like all my dreams are just fading away..So, one day i decided to change all that, because after all we have the power to make our dreams come true. I, of course, had help from people that i never imagined they could influence me with something, and finally I met, what i think to be,  planned for me from a long time: Heart's!!
     This organization is world wide, it started in France, but in short time spread all over the world, and I am one of the lucky young people that decided to try something different, useful with my life. This is the international link for those who want to know more http://heartshome.org/?lang=en .After a few weeks in which i spend time with the missionary girls here in my country, and i thought about this decision very good, i come to the idea of going too. So I applied, and waited for an answer, and finally i got one: i will go in Dakar - Senegal!!! This video presents the place and people from Dakar, and makes me to get there already :)) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xss_L9sGu5k
     I will stay there for more then a year, in which i really hope that everything will be ok, for the people that i will meet, but also for me!
     Like i said in the title, important things happens every day, and this news, this decision is important for me. In this time i noticed the people that really are my friends, people who, no matter how, they support me and they are here for me, with me.
    I will try to post photos, videos and articles about the amazing life in Dakar. Meanwhile, i wish that all of you transfrom their dreams into reality! 

Different kind of feelings...

   Weird things happens all the time, but when they are happening one after another, the situation can become really confusing. In the last two weeks, although i haven't had a busy schedule, i can say that many hings happened, and i cannot stop wondering what are their purpose?
   I believe that every little thing that happens in your life, every person that you meet is not a coincidence, everything and everyone has a purpose, bigger or smaller, but still a purpose in your life. The small things that happened this week for me, were begining to mess up with my head: they were producing strange thoughts, doubts, maybe one regret that i have right now, and all of these lead to confusion, in a moment that i have to 100% sure of what i must do. So, a few minutes ago, something happened, someone happened, and after the small conversation that i had with him, i realized that everything else that happened this week, was all about feelings, past feelings, present and future ones. And now I know, now I know exactly what everything meant,..
    The first person that looked for me, didn't give me emotions because i still had something, but because of all the pain he caused me, it wasn't nostalgia, it was sadness, and it troubled me because maybe i still have some wounds that are not healed,..
   But the person that i have just talked to, made me feel good, gave hope and faith, even though he didn't say much, i felt him that he was with me, in every decision that i make, and that maybe he has more faith in me than i do, although he doesn't know me that well, we just didn't had the time..Different kind of feelings that people can give you..but this is good, because that's how we realized what we have, what we want, and more importantly what we feel, what is important to us: looking in the past? or looking towards the future?
   He said that we will meet again, eventough for that we will have to wait almost 2 years. Well, i prefer to meet someone from an instable future, then to meet with the person that i know in the past..I prefer to have hope and faith that..nothing is a coincidence...

Innamoratevi..Indragostiti-va...Fall in love!!

     This video that i've seen so early in the morning, gave me the impulse of life! not love, like it should have, but life! The passion from his voice, his gestures, his whole body was feeling the love for poetry, and with poetry, for love itself..
      We all are humans, with feelings and expectations, with emotions and impulses, we all make mistakes, and we all get hurt, but the beauty of it all is exactly this: in all we do, all of our experiences, we feel!!! What we feel, and the fact that we allow ourselfs to feel, makes life beautiful and worth living, without those we are nothing. "Fall in love, because without love everything is dead"...And he is right, absolutely right, and i know this because in the last few months, i was running, maybe i am still running from the chances of falling in love with someone, because its easier, and safer for my heart, in other words i was beeing a coward. :)), funny though, i never thought that i could ever be one,. maybe sometimes we become somebody that we don't like, without even knowing...
       Anyway, hope that you like the video, and sorry that's in Italian, i couldn't find one with subtitles..still the passion form his body, will give you all that you need to understand, that fallin in love, and to love is the most important gift that we have, and we should do that without fear..

Untouchables...

    Incet incet simtim cum ne pierdem in valvataia vietii. Facem atatea lucruri, si incercam sa fie cat mai diverse pentru a ne simti cat mai vii, si uneori reusim, iesim putin din tipar, dar valurile zilnice ale vietii ne cuprind din nou si din nou, si din nou.. Ne simtim prinsi ca intr-un cerc vicios, din care nu mai reusim sa iesim, si ne simtim pierduti,..Ne trezim intr-o dimineata intrebandu-ne ce este important pentru noi? si de ce? Ce ne face pe noi sa vrem sa ne ridicam din pat dimineata? ce ne face sa vrem sa traim? Serviciul nostru? Prietenii nostri? Ce este de fapt important pentru noi?
     Am vazut astazi un film care sincera sa fiu m-a impresionat mult. Iar melodia de la final cuprinde intr-adevar esenta acestui film, din acest motiv o si postez. In mine trezeste un sentiment, care probabil a fost demult uitat: cel de iubire fata de aproapele, fara limite si fara recompense. Pacat ca ne pierdem atat de usor in aceasta lume plina de egoism, mandrie si rautate. Din fericire sunt si oameni care pot mai mult, care vor mai mult, si ne arata noua, restului lumii, ca se poate, ca sentimentele frumoase exista si se pot darui. Acest film ne ofera o raza de speranta, sau cel putin asta imi arata mie..Sper sa va placa!
 

The truth is in your heart!

   There will be times in life when you must choose between things that are important to us. We might not know why we are put in such positions, because choosing somthing above the other may have different turns in our lives, that we cannot change after, but still we must choose. And then, we ask ourself: how can I make this decision? how will I know is the right one?
   What may look to us important, to others can be nothing, we already know that, but still we go to our friends and family to seek for advice and council. Why? Because we believe in them, we trust them, and we think that by knowing us, they will help us to choose the right thing for us. Well, we are wrong!
   Friends and family are important, and to me, to be honest, they are the most important in my life, but unfortunately for us, they cannot decide for us, they cannot help us much, because every single person in this world thinks differently from us, and what's important to us, may not be as important to them. They cannot say do this, or do that, because what we feel towards a thing, they may not feel the same, they see it differently, and their advise will be from their own whishes, dreams or experience. That doesn't mean they don't care about you, or they don't want for you to have the best things in the world, no. That just means, that in the end, the hard part of choosing its just on your own shoulders. It may seem like a bad thing, but actually its the thing that will make you more happy for what you do, because this means you will have to take full responsability for the consequences of your actions, of your decisions. And in the end, this kind of situations makes us the people we want to be.
   We may not always choose right, we may regret our decisions, but we surely learn something, we surely change, and next time we will know that we must choose with our hearts, because no matter what, the truth about onw self lays in our hearts!

"Oh wells" or "what if.."

  Facem lucruri pe care le consideram noi ca sunt bune pentru noi, sau poate pentru cei din jurul nostru, si facem aceste lucruri in functie de cum ne dicteaza inima, constiinta, ..asta pana la un moment dat. Suntem noi insine, sau actionam dupa cum consideram ca e bine, fara sa ne punem prea multe intrebari, pana in momentul in care suntem total dezamagiti, sau raniti, sau respinsi...Si poate chiar si dupa un astfel de moment, ne ridicam si zicem "mna, se mai intampla", si incercam din nou, si din nou, si din nou. Poate ca avem mai multe astfel de "pana la un moment dat", dar cu siguranta acest "moment dat" ne ajunge, si cand ne ajunge incepe sa-si faca loc din ce in ce mai mult: ratiunea! si astfel incepem sa ne punem tot felul de intrebari, inainte de orice actiune pe care simtim sau dorim sa o intreprindem: "dar daca nu e bine?, si daca va fi mai rau? dar totusi poate va merge?" si etc. si astfel incet incet, renuntam la ideile noastre, iar peste un timp incepe sa ne macine, sa ne bantuie, intrebarea: "What if????" sau in traducerea noastra: "Cum ar fi fost daca..???"
   Nu stiu de voi, dar eu am incercat sa evit aceasta intrebare. Cum? Simplu! Am incercat sa fac tot ce simt, ca sa nu am intrebarea asta in mine mai tarziu. Da, bineinteles, poate ca au fost momente in care poate am simtit o urma de regret ca am facut un lucru, dar prefer sa-mi para rau ca l-am facut, decat sa-mi para rau ca nu l-am facut. Adica, de ce sa ma intreb toata viata cum ar fi fost daca?
   Pe tema acestei intrebari, am vazut zilele trecute un film. Era cineva care se intreba cum ar fi fost daca...Si trezindu-se si-a vazut viata total diferita. A crezut ca poate asa ar fi avut o viata mai fericita, ca unele lucruri ar fi fost evitate, dar..se pare ca intr-un final, a ajuns sa cunoasca aceiasi oameni, sa se imprieteneasca cu aceeasi persoana, si ca mai devreme sau tarziu, ar fi ajuns sa iubeasca acelasi barbat. Evident nu era totul la fel, situatiile au fost diferite, dar indiferent de calea pe care a ales sa mearga, se pare ca toate drumurile duceau in acelasi loc, doar situatiiile erau diferite. Asa ca e posibil sa fie adevarata zicala: "ce-i al tau, e pus deoparte", sau " daca e sa fie al tau, tot la tine se va intoarce", sau " nu poti scapa de ceea ce e pregatit pentru tine"..

 
   

We all have a mission: LIFE!!!!

   We wake up in the morning every day, we drink our coffee, we go to work, and that's how the days are passing, day by day..But what makes a day special, different? I for one, must addmit that in the last weeks, i had the feeling that all days are the same, nothing changed, nothing,..Until....Until this morning! Hearing a simple song, thinking about a person that made me smile at one point, remembering my dreams, or my ideals, these things made an explosion inside of me, and for me own surprise, i was feeling full of life again.
   I was thinking that today i will make something different, i remembered that i wanted to do soo many things but after my return in this, slowly slowly i just forgot about them, and let myself to go down, but i do not want to do that anymore.
   We all have our demons, we all have our problems, ideals and dreams crushed, but it's all up to us!! We all have a mission: Life its self! we cannot stop living, just because we cannot find the mecanisem that keeps us going, we must try and try and then try again, and all of that to fulfill our mission: to live the way we want and feel! So, get up and start runing to your finish line, and across your way make people smile, make people get up and follow you!